Changing And Rearranging..

Today my world started like any other day with coffee, sports, news, etc.. Then an article I was reading set off a discussion and forced some thoughts and revelations. First, a discussion with my significant other about his thoughts on the what ifs. What if a nuclear bomb, what if a nationwide electrical shortage, what if a cataclysmic event happened, would we survive? What would the survival rate be? Course I was met with the usual “you are crazy” kind of response. But I persisted and then pointed out societal things that could make any one of these a possibility if we do not change our behavior. But can we? And can we in time? So he actually thought, gave me a response, and we had a valid discussion about all kinds of things including our current political environment. He toned down some of my fears while I showed views from multiple vantage points of all situations. A learning process for us both and I see now that there is much to learn from him so I better get cracking.

With that in mind, I thought when I first started my blog, that maybe I could have everyone look at ourselves, and each other, to try to heal ourselves, and each other, before it was too late. I have come to realize that it may already be too late for some. I realized that wheels of destruction, division, hate, misinformation, misunderstanding, and lack of education were put in motion a really long time ago that possibly cannot be stopped. Especially when there is money being made to keep it that way. These wheels can be survived though and it will take some re-learning, different education, different thought process, less convenience, and probably pain we are going to have to be able to endure. Over these past few months I myself have been changing, learning, teaching, rearranging, etc.. Though I have no intention on stopping my blog, you will see some changes coming to my site as I change and as I struggle to find my path. I have spoken to you about many things since I began. Things like: beauty, love, hate, apathy, courage, truth, division, self-satisfaction, personal responsibility, speech, silence, and more. Some of you have added in and given the rest of us great food for thought. And we will need these things, maybe now is just not the time. So I hope you remember them when the time comes. This leads me to my first revelation. That is, my thought process needs to change. Maybe I am not supposed to help fix, instead maybe my healing will begin in an attempt to teach what is needed for when we are completely broken.

My second revelation comes in, when I say my thought process needs to change, I really do not mean in small ways, I mean in leaps and bounds. Take for instance I was told recently that in my past I have jumped to conclusions, believed what I wanted to believe; whether truth or not, and because of this I have been disappointed. When I thought about that statement and my most recent disappointment, and equated my thought process into it, on went the light. See for my entire life I have thought that the harder I worked and the more of my time I was willing to give to a company meant I would be rewarded by upward motion. Only in one instance did that happen, and shockingly it was in a very creative environment. In my last position, like most others, I watched friends of friends continue to advance while I did not only my own job, but part of theirs. Eventually, when people are put in positions they can no longer handle change is made. I finally changed my situation by leaving and beginning on a journey to seek knowledge about myself, my environment, and about company and corporate environments. My change in thought process is not that I should not work hard, as I always have and I will continue to do so, but instead that I cannot fix the structural short comings of corporations. Eventually I know they will fall like a stack of cards, and when they do they will need guidance, knowledge, truth, and many other things to survive, just like the rest of us.

My new journey is to educate myself and maybe you too with the things that I am learning. Things that can and will help us when we finally are broken and past the hate and the divisions. I hope you will still come and see what I have to say and add in if I am in error or you know more on the subject. Be prepared I may possibly, or will, take us back to early times in my passing on of information. For example, one of the things I have been researching as of late, are some of the plants or trees on my property. Maybe I will discuss them and then maybe you will plant and grow your own. I am not sure what I will discuss moving forward, but I hope to merge my quest for knowledge, with my love for teaching and creativity. And I really hope that you will enjoy being part of the journey to come and that it will be beneficial to us all.