Exiting The Matrix…

They say in order to heal, we first must admit that we are hurt, that we have a problem, that we are damaged, or that we are diseased. I built this blog in hopes that we could all begin a healing journey. A journey away from the pain, anger and hatred that is so prevalent in today’s society. At this point, I am unsure of the depth of healing that has actually taken place, if any. I have noticed moments in which I have been pulled back into states of confusion, and states of stagnancy. In recent days, however, I am realizing a few things. One, that I must first put my admittance out there in order to completely heal. And two, that healing will not be easy or quick, and that I may have set backs.

So to begin, I am finally admitting to myself and to you that I have been in the matrix for far too long. I do not mean I have been in a pod, needing a pill, or do I? I have begun to recognize, that as things arise in my life, and I search for the truth, I may never know what that is. And that is a very scary place to be. So I must do my best and seek it, but seek it in the light. For I have been in the darkness for far too long. And the darkness loves company, so it uses great powers to try to keep me here. But, I refuse to stay in this place any longer.

What is the matrix?? It is the place where we reside and are taught to fear, to hate, and to envy. The lessons start even when the adults do not know we are learning. When they speak in front of us, when we are but babes, of the things that they fear; leaders of other countries, people of different races, people of different religions, people who speak other languages, people with money and power, etc.. It does not end there, lessons continue in our schools, in our religions, in our governments, and in our countries, when our differences are pointed out and used to divide us. It is easy to fear, that which we do not know, especially if we are trusting someone else to guide us and tell us who the other is. And do not get me started on the media that, because it sells, shows me what they want me to see of any and every bad situation. In our own quest for whatever it may be, money, power, success, we have learned to use these divisions for our own advancements. We even erase history (that which reminds us of places we have been, advancements we have made, and evils we do not want to repeat) in order to keep us in this place. Well, I do not know about you, but I cannot live this way anymore.

Do not get me wrong, I believe there are many that are and have made strides to awakening people like me. I do not think that the masses are evil, just that we somehow lost our way. I started this to get to know you, so that I would not fear you or our differences anymore, so that I would know that you have lived a similar life to mine. On its path, in my writings, my experiences, my meetings with other people, I realize I must unlearn everything I think I know and have been taught, and I must begin anew. So as I exit the matrix I have two desires: to live free and to live a life of love.

With that said, as I take my first steps and begin to let this site evolve into what it needs to be or will become, my first thoughts are these: It matters not your religious affiliation, those of faith, all believe that we have a creator. It is my belief that we are made of his spirit; the spirit of love. That love is the only thing that can calm a fear, that can fill the void of loss, that can bring a community together in joy and laughter, that exudes great power, and that it takes courage, persistence, strength, faith, truth, purity, and innocence to walk in it. So as I proceed, I hope to bring each topic, to you, from its vantage point and hope that you come along and join in.